lost

Lost in paranoid isolation
of a desolate mind

Memories playing hard
to kill what is left
of my sanity..

i try to close my eyes
and kill the sound of pain
and erase all the memories

i have lost from within
polluted by broken trust

watching everything spin around outside
inside i am lost in paranoid isolation

satanic spells cast on me
devil's taken over my soul

i am speeding towards insanity
fuelled by sound of your voice
fuelled by words of your promises

trapped in memories
i pretend that past never happened

Memories playing hard
to kill what is left
of my sanity..

i try to hide
secret of ma broken trust
in wounds of ma swollen heart

i try hard to replace
volcanic pain with
numbness of tears

with all the helplessness inside
with all the desolation inside
with all the helpness inside

Still lost in paranoid isolation
of a desolate mind

- Abhay Sawant

Such is the way of Life

Such is the way of Life

In the beginning it fills you with Hope

In the end it hollows you out with Pain

You were just a vacuum

Waiting to be filled with

A breathing soul...

You were trying to stay awake

Trying to stay away from

Cold Dreams…

You were seeking a tomorrow

Sailing through a sea of

Bleeding Sun...

You were fighting

For a Living Soul in

Midst of Zombies…

You fought a battle

Which was already

Lost….

You sailed through today

Trying to sight a

Faraway Tomorrow….

You didn’t dream

Because you were just another

Insomniac...

You had a Beautiful life to live

But you choose to follow

The Shadow of Hope…

Such is the way of Life

In the beginning it cheats you with Hope

In the end it kills you with Pain...

-Abhay Sawant

ONLY YOU

All I ever knew was ONLY YOU

All I ever need was ONLY YOU

All I ever cared was ONLY YOU

All I ever loved was ONLY YOU

Soon Destiny played hard

To take you away so far

To Heavens above the sky

Further than birds flying high

Towards the Glowing Sun

And the country of Cold Moon

Beyond where I could never see…

When I walk by the side road

Memories play with me

Tears on my face, I feel lonely

Living a life that died with you

Wind in my hair, I feel lost

Walking on a road that disappeared

Long Long time ago...

I am out of time

My soul is frozen

My heart is broken

Memories no longer a pain

Dreams no longer cry out

Hope agony called life soon ceases to exist

With

No excuse to live

No pain to feel

No tears to spill

No love to give

All I ever had was ONLY YOU…

- Abhay Sawant

path of a soul

soothe my burning soul
on its journey to the end
journey filled with memories
memories which burn hard,
harder than embers of burning coal.

Stabbed by its own fate,
my soul cries in pain,
pain inflicted by its own...
Deep down to the core
my soul erupts like lava
spewing tears of its faith
leaving behind ugly scars
scars on its dying face

Tears stop
So does the pain
Scars still remain
Etched on wretched destiny of my dying soul

End of tiring game
My soul falls to agonies of life
My burning soul is cold,
Colder than scars across its dead face......
-Abhay Sawant

revenge of doomed

i hate fuckin situation
where theres mental precipitation
as i lie here tryin hard 2 live
fate tries 2 kill me instead
stabbing me all ovah again and again
but vat does it matter....
im still alive
now a fuckin cripple
but still standin against you
tear me down
before i tear you down
make u feel d pain
which tore me all d tym
hate me now
before i began 2 hate u
suffocate me now
before i strangle you
trust you i cudnt
fuck u i will
there will no more be silence
only screams of pain from u
blood feeds d death
soon it shall be yours
it drives me insane
i still havent made u repent
fight me if u can
before my fury burns you down
makes u feel your flesh
See through your blurry sight
sight of death lurking around you
no fear can stop me 2day
giving reactions 2 ur actions
my revenge for ur wretched insanity
is your bloody death
I'm gonna do vat i gotta do
Maybe not tonight
but soon im gonna squeeze ur soul
cut d veins which pump ur lyf
n fuck you
n i got fucking no regrets
for vat i do 2 u.....
-Abhay Sawant

Rock ur Soul

So what's so great about rock music? Well, for one thing it's stood the test of time. Trends come and go but this stuff endures. Unforgiven by metallica,nothing else matters by metallica,fear of the dark by iron maiden,my sacrifice by creed,Nevermind by nirvana,....the core rock has held the fascination not only of its own generation but of every one since. No one has fully succeeded in explaining this phenomenon, but one thing is clear: there's something here of permanent value. Pick your favorite METALLICA TRACK and ask yourself: will anyone still emote over it in a hundred years? I guarantee you, though, that generations yet unborn will still respond to UNFORGIVEN.

some of ma fav lines below are:

I don't know how to live through this hell
Woken up I'm still locked in this shell
Frozen soul frozen down to the core
Break the ice I can't take anymore

Freezing can't move at all
Screaming can't hear my call
I am dying to live
Cry out I'm trapped under ice

Crystallized as I lay here in rest
Eyes of glass stare directly at death
From deep sleep I have broken away
No one knows no one hears what I say

Freezing can't move at all
Screaming can't hear my call
I am dying to live
Cry out I'm trapped under ice

Scream from my soul
Fate mystified
Hell forever more

No release from my cryonic state
What is this? I've been stricken by fate
Wrapped up tight cannot move can't break free
Hand of doom has a tight grip on me

Freezing can't move at all
Screaming can't hear my call
I am dying to live
Cry out I'm trapped under ice
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I'm running out of time, I'm running out of breath
And now it's getting so I can't sleep at night
In the day, feel like death
I'm getting in far too deep, I feel them closing in
I've got to say that I'm scared, I know they'll win
Even so, I'm prepared
Do you believe what you hear, can you believe what you see
Do you believe what you feel, can you believe

What is real? Futureal
What is real?
Whenever anyone seems to treat me like a freak
It makes me see I'm the only one who feels
That I know what is real
Sometimes it feels like a game of deadly hide and seek
And when you're reading this, then I will be gone
Maybe then, you will see
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From the dust of which I came
To dust I return again
From my mother I am torn
With my brothers off the war
We escape before the dawn
Try to outrun the sun
Take my own life in my hands
Fearing God but never man

Take my ancient hand, look me in the eye
Looking past the lines soon you'll see as I
You are young if you want you could be old if you try
I can show you how to live but you can't show me how to die

As the sun stalks the sky
I am not afraid to die
My ear upon the ground
For the ironhorse's sound
Encircle glowing rocks
One by one each chieftain talks
Tales of yore and bravest deeds
Coveting their warrior creed

My hands will bridge the distance of beginning to the end
The time for learning ceases it was all wasted and spent
From witch doctor to shaman, Kachina doll to chief
The spirit knows what ails you, you beg for its relief
All that I know, all that I say, my heart beats and my pulse drums
Out tribal rhythms pounding through the sky